Tomorrow I think I will register this site on Rimsy.  Having a blackberry… it’s just so much easier to use that to write posts sometimes.  And I have several thoughts on my mind.

I hate parties, or any other large gathering of people.

With a passion.

I don’t “like” that I dislike large groups of people, but I am just not comfortable in any way.  I become totally insecure.  It’s not uncommon for me to leave those large groups feeling terrible, mentally speaking- lonely and unsettled.

It’s not that I dislike people.  Shoot, I spend so much time by myself, and one of my favorite activities is getting to go out to lunch or dinner with a friend.  A friend- no more than a small amount of people, not a large gathering.

Tonight we had a “party” at my church- a pot luck.  I love my church and I love the people in my church.  I felt really bad, but I just needed to leave early so that I could get some air and put my heart at ease.  I don’t suppose anyone else would understand, but that’s okay.  Sometimes I just need some space.

It doesn’t help that I’m a bit sleep deprived.  But, right now my mother and I are watching “Just Like Heaven” with Reese Witherspoon and Mark Ruffalo, and I’m fighting tears.  (We’re not big Oscar fans.)

This movie just gets me every time.  And I do not easily tear up, so that is really saying something!  For starters, Reese Witherspoon is my favorite actress- she is very talented, and she is also a direct descendant of John Witherspoon (one of the signers of the Declaration of Independence), which I think is totally awesome.  But that’s not what makes me cry.

In this movie, Reese Witherspoon’s character is in a coma for the majority of movie.  While she’s in a coma, her spirit falls in love with the man who sublets her apartment.  And, to me, it’s really powerful.

I was in a coma once.

Maybe someday.